All the people around me are IDIOTS. My mom, my dad, my sister, my brother, my so-called "friends", everyone, every single person who hurt me, physically or emotionally. They are insensitive mean jerks who got nothing on their minds but to hurt people. I've been tolerating them for too long already, and they have got to stop. I am so fed up with all the insults, bruises, everything. They are judgmental sadists and I'm their poor victim. You must think I'm overreacting, but no. I am TRULY and DEEPLY scarred by what they've done to me. Just 3 or 4 seconds ago, my brother just tried to manipulate me into doing whatever it was he wanted. I am not gullible and I WILL fight back. I'm not a sick puppet anymore. They are not the boss of me, however cliche it might sound. I just want to be free from their cruel hands. I just want to be me.
I thought they'd forgive me for my mistakes but now, I can't expect them to fight for me. This is all so unbelievable, really. I may be soft-spoken sometimes but that doesn't mean I'm stupid. Sometimes I just do favors just to get on their good side. It's pathetic. I'M pathetic.
I just want them to be able to understand what I'm going through. I can't do favors or stuff forever. They can't treat me like s*** all the time. I gotta be on my own. Just once.

Sigh. I just LURVE Christmas! The Season of Giving is just so wonderfully crazy. I mean, yes, my feet ache whenever I go buy gifts, but when the moment comes when I actually give them to people I love/like, it's like I'm floating in cloud nine. I guess that's just what Christmas feels, don't you? Selflessness is top priority (aside from Jesus, of course =P). Sigh.

Oh yeah, I went to 168 Shopping Mall (w/ my mom) this morning and bought gifts for my campmates. It was 9am and I didn't eat breakfast so I was really really really sluggish, dizzy, and sleepy. Anyway, going there early is for the best since 168 Shopping Mall is usually...er... crowded during the afternoon. Well, our expectations were crushed when we saw that there were already LOTS of people inside the building. And I mean LOTS. Compared to the shoppers in the afternoon, there was only a quarter inch difference. Tsk tsk. Poor us. =p

Luckily, we bought all the necessary presents just before lunch so we quickly shoved, bumped, and pushed people to go out and get a ride home. Whew! (We didn't really push people. I just typed that in for effect. Hehe)

Hmm. Read the title. Ano ang koneksyon ko kina Velma ng Scooby Doo, Edna Mole ng The Incredibles, at Sabrina ng Wonderful Life (koreanovela)? Kung sinuman ang nagsabing wala, e di pa niya nakikita ang buhok ko. Yep. That's right. Nagpagupit na ako ng buhok last Saturday. I wanted to try something new so I chopped, like, 3 or 4 inches of my hair. One length, with loooong side bangs. Sabi nga ng mama ko na ganito daw yung buhok noong 5 yrs. old daw ako. Ngeks. Hehe. Nung pumasok ako sa school nung Monday, puro comments ang natanggap ko grabe. Wow puro compliments! Dalawang tao lang ang di nasiyahan. Sina Krystel at Jennifer W. Sabi daw nila mas bagay daw yung dati. My hair was shoulder-length, shaggy, and boring. Ugh. I just had to get rid of it. Anyways, nung umakyat ako papuntang classroom nung araw na iyon galing sa baba (nag-ayos kami ng gamit para sa booth namin), nagpalakpakan ang mga klasmeyts ko the moment I opened the door. Haha. Baliw talaga sila. Sabi nila kamukha ko daw si Velma. Niloloko nga nila ako kasi sinasabi nila yung catchphrase ni Velma. Yung "JInkies!!!" Tapos kinakanta pa nila yung theme song ng Scooby Doo:

Baka nagtataka kayo kung bakit ganyan ang title ng post na to. Eh kasi ba naman ako ang inutusan ni Mrs. Bilgera na magkolekta ng pera para sa booth namin para sa Youth in Focus at tsaka para dun sa Pro Child. Ang hirap hirap maningil, sa totoo lang. Nararanasan ko na rin ang hirap na dinadanas ni Marla (siya yung treasurer namin sa classroom). Buti nga tapos na. Maraming di nagbayad kaya nakakainis. Ayaw ba naman makipag-cooperate. Grabe. Nakaka-frustrate talaga.

In other topics, nanalo ulit yung PCHS sa basketball kagabi. Champions na ang PCHS! Woohoo! Haha kaya lang di ko pinanuod kasi tinatamad na ako. Naghintay na lang ako sa labas ng gate kasama yung mama ko. One hour ako naghintay grabe. E yung shobe ko kasi gustong tapusin yung laban. Ewan ko ba dun. Adik kasi eh.

Hay. La na ako ibang masabi. Boring ang buhay ko ngayon.

Oo nga pala, yung tungkol sa taong kinwento ko dati (see the other post below), well, ganun pa rin ang sitwasyon. Medyo nagkalayo na kami. Siguro kasi ako ang may kasalanan. Ayoko na kasi makipagbiruan sa kanya. Sawang-sawa na ako. Buti nga lumalayo na rin siya sa akin. That way, walang complications. Di ba?

Yikes. Adik na ako sa Monokuro Boo. Haha. Gagastusin ko nga lahat ng pera ko para bumili ng mga MB products. LOL. Adik mode.