Life is so...unsettling...boring...right now. And by life, I mean "rev class life". Everyday, I feel anxious. Like something wrong is gonna come up. I hate feeling like that. It makes me cringe. And I don't like cringeing, either.

I feel like I'm wasting my time. I know about all the things these classes will do to me. Yes, they can help me. They will help me. It's just that I hate the fact that I'm spending whole mornings sitting there, listening to stuff I've already heard.

*Now that was the "anxious me" talking. Let's now hear it for the "not-fully-optimistic-but-still-kinda-optimistic-me".

It is sort of okay to me, actually. I mean, all I do there is sit, listen and answer some questions. I learn more, in fact. There are tests everyday and to my shock, I got low grades at some of them. I really can't believe that I still need to catch up on a lot of things. A lot. Especially my vocabulary. I mean, I thought my vocab was good. I get really high scores in English in my school, but this was the first time I failed an English exam. The first I tell you. It was a little disheartening, but I had to get through it. I really had to.

*Mixed feelings. Ugh, it's annoying. I don't know what to feel. Should I be happy, anxious or both? I really don't know. It's all static to me. T_T