OK. I know many people are wondering why I'm like this. A cutthroat, whiny bitch. Here are the reasons:

Well, actually it all started last year, I think. I mean, I've always been whiny ever since I was born, but I became BITCHY whiny when I was in 3rd year high school. In school, I've been known as the "quiet" and "shy" girl who doesn't speak. That's because I don't wanna talk to people who are users, feelers, backstabbers, teacher's pets, posers, etc. etc. But most of them are the jologs type, so...I don't wanna go near them, for I'll get "hawa" of their jologs-ness.

Another reason is the internet/media. The wonderful, powerful and influential world of the web. I met so many people who are kinda like me. Sarcastic, evil, etc. whatever you wanna describe me. Because of the Net, these underlying characteristics strengthened and combined, and voila! I became this.

Hmm. Third reason. My early childhood was UGLYYY. I got teased around a lot. Kids are awful. But of course we all know that. Anyway, maybe, just maybe, that was also one of the reasons why now that I'm older, I also became harsh and brutal to people. My comments often consist of bad words, obviously. Yeah yeah yeah. I became a bitter, heartless person. (FYI, I don't cry when I'm sad. I cry when I'm reallllyy angry. When I'm pissed off, I just make dabog dabog. Or yeah, I blog about it. =P)

I really don't know why I'm writing this. I guess it's to make people understand, but I know they won't. They're not me.

P.S.

SOMETIMES, only sometimes, when I speak badly of another person, it's all the result of "carried away-ness". My feelings take hold of me and suddenly, all negative stuff come out of mouth. I admit that I feel good when I do that. GAAAAAD. What is wrong with me?! But yeah, if I've ever truly, deeply hurt anyone, then I'm sorry.